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Fragile

If being pregnant three times in four years taught me anything, it’s this…

People say dumb stuff to pregnant women.

I’ve heard my fair share of all the usual comments…

“No, it’s not twins.”

“No, I’m not ready to pop since I’m two months from my due date.”

“If by ‘any day now’ you mean in eight weeks.”

“Yes, I am quite large right now, and yes, I do have my hands full.”

While many women get grossly offended by these comments, I simply laughed them off. I have come to realize the general American public does not understand human gestation at all. Statistically, it very doubtful that it’s ever twins. And even though bodies vary, a 30 week bump looks vastly different than a 40 week bump. If a woman is near near her due date, she is likely carrying a 7-9 pound human inside her uterus. It seems even older women, who themselves have borne children, have forgotten these facts.

During my most recent pregnancy, I began to contemplate how women can be so fragile. Silly pregnancy comments infuriate us. Conflict on social media overwhelms us. Images on Pinterest make us jealous. A theological disagreement causes us distress. A mother who has different parenting methods is abrasive. And never mind healthy debate in an actual conversation. That’s too scary.

On the one hand, I think God designed women to collaborate and seek consensus, and that’s a really beautiful thing. I am not advocating for conflict. I personally don’t like it very much. But when I look at my own heart and how quick I am to back out of conversation or justify my actions or cover up my shortcomings or pretend I have the right answers, I am bothered by my own fragility.

It’s okay to dialogue, disagree, not have the right words, and laugh it off when someone else says the wrong words.

I often see women who are so distraught over comments about toxins and homeschooling and breastfeeding and multi-level marketing that they don’t have time to talk about the gospel or they back out of conversation altogether because they are so easily hurt and frustrated by others.

Women, let’s not spend our time proving our strength when we should be humble. And let’s not wallow in weakness where Christ has made us strong.

Love can bear a thoughtless or critical comment.

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. I Corinthians 13:4-7

As a sinful person, I don’t always say the right thing. Sometimes I speak rashly; sometimes I’m critical instead of merciful. Sometimes I say something funny and it comes across as harsh. Sometimes I’m downright rude or angry. So I can’t expect other people to speak flawlessly either. Proverbs 19:11 reminds us, “Good sense makes one slow to anger, and it is his glory to overlook an offense.” Friends, family, acquaintances, strangers on the internet… sometimes they are going to be harsh, judgmental, or rash. I am called to love them anyway. Only Jesus ever spoke perfectly on earth. And he has filled me with love that can bear an insult and endure a thoughtless comment.

Engage in dialogue.

Walk in wisdom toward outsiders, making the best use of the time. Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer each person. Colossians 4:5-6

In my fragility, I am inclined to step out of conversations, ignore criticism, or justify myself when someone disagrees with me. If I post something on Instagram and get one negative response, despite 20 or 30 positive responses, part of me is tempted to remove the whole post. But I don’t think this passive, fearful response is helpful. The New Testament is clear that conversation is important. Perhaps a friend is pointing out my own sin by bringing a word of conviction. Perhaps a non-believer is opposed to my view, but responding to their critique gives me a chance to share the gospel. Although there are definitely reasons to be silent (with fools – Proverbs 23:9, with those who revile and attack the gospel – Matthew 7:6, in marriage – I Peter 3:1), the Bible tells us it is important to speak. Believers should regularly exhort and honor one another out loud. We must tell non-believers about the good news of Jesus. We should not be fearful people who back out conversations when they are difficult. We can be people who, by the Spirit, get better and better at speaking truth with love and grace.

Examine yourself.

When someone speaks, it might not be TO you. The internet is a broad platform, and for better or worse, it is easy to share a message with a lot of people at once. But not everything I say is intended for everyone who might hear it or read it. The other day I hopped on Instagram Stories and talked a little bit about consumerism. Over the years, I’ve been convicted of my relationship with Target and how my habits there reveal my sinful heart. I had to recognize that Target was a false place of rest for me and that my purchases were often unsatisfying and revealed poor stewardship of my time and money. I have a haunch other women struggle with the same thing, because I see too many pictures on Instagram of women filling a red shopping cart with clothing and home décor while drinking Starbucks at 9pm at night. Many women responded positively. They, too, have experienced conviction with their shopping habits and have repented by establishing boundaries and fleeing the temptation of loitering in their favorite stores. However, a few women chimed in to say they actually enjoy shopping at Target, especially without kids in tow. It’s a moment of rest for them. My response? That’s totally fine. If you are simply thankful for a kid-free evening, and you have the disposable income to buy yourself a latte while you shop, that’s not wrong. It is wrong to expect Target to fulfill your spiritual needs for rest, comfort, and approval that can only be met in Christ.

This is why the Bible tells us to examine ourselves (I Corinthians 11:28; 2 Corinthians 13:5). While something (shopping, eating, exercise, viewing a film, drinking wine) might be sinful for one person, it might not be sinful for another. God is at work sanctifying everyone who believes in him, but he does so in different ways at different times. While I might struggle with consumerism, I have many friends who aren’t usually tempted while shopping. They can go into Target, buy their trash bags or laundry detergent, and walk right back out again. They have the freedom in Christ to grab a mocha or a bag of popcorn while they shop. I don’t have this freedom, because I need to fight the sin (of Target) that so easily entangles me.

However, I see and hear messages all the time about the importance of reading Scripture. Studies show that fewer than half of Christians read their Bible on a regular basis, and this makes me sad. But when I hear a sermon or read a blog post imploring believers to study Scripture regularly, I don’t need to feel defensive or respond with self-justification. By God’s grace, I read my Bible every morning. Is this natural for me? No. It’s God’s Spirit at work within me. Because God loves me and is always sanctifying me, this is an area of life that is not a struggle for me anymore. Do I read my Bible perfectly? By no means. Sometimes I’m rushed. Sometimes it feels mundane. Sometimes I fail to apply the truth I read throughout the day. But if I read a message calling out Christians for their failure to read God’s Word consistently, I can quickly examine myself and praise God for how he has grown me to be disciplined in this area.

When you hear a sermon or read a message online, you don’t need to feel condemned or get defensive. Test yourself and see how the words might apply to you. You might feel convicted to repent of sin or you might have an opportunity to praise God for the way he has visibly sanctified your heart in a certain area.

Laugh at the days to come. 

Proverbs 31 tells us that a godly woman is able to “laugh at the days to come.” The woman described in the passage has so much faith in God that she is not anxious about the future. However, I believe this principle of being able to laugh applies broadly to godly womanhood. I can laugh at a stranger’s comments about my round belly, because I know carrying a child is a gift, and a temporary one at that. I can enjoy conversations about essential oils or breastfeeding, because I delight in a God who gives us freedom in Christ to make personal choices about how to live and raise our families. I can laugh when someone gives me a label such as “too loud” or “too conservative,” because I know I am God’s child. I can even smile when a fellow believer speaks a word of conviction to me, because I am forgiven of all my sins, and I know God might be using a sister or brother to transform my heart.

It’s time to stop being so fragile. In Christ, even when we are weak, we are strong (2 Corinthians 12:10). We are strong enough to bear an insult. Strong enough to disagree. Strong enough to speak the truth in love. Strong enough to help the needy. Strong enough to stand up to injustice. Strong enough to share the gospel. Strong enough to admit when we are struggling. Strong enough to repent of our sin.

The Holy Spirit, who raised Christ from the dead, dwells in you. There is no need to be fragile when you are chosen, loved, and protected by the God of the universe.

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  • Reply Gina

    This was so encouraging and convicting. I think you should submit this to White Horse Inn or Core Christianity (Nick works there), because I feel as though being “offended” or thinking that everything we hear or see on social media is meant for us is a problem. We need to be reminded of our freedoms in a Christ and you so carefully explained that in this post. Going to share this on my private Facebook momma group if that’s ok??

    November 28, 2017 at 7:12 pm
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